Decision Making - Baby or Work?
I am now facing the greatest challenge as a mother (I think). I have to make a choice between leaving my work to personally take care of my baby or keeping my work and let other people I do not even know do my job as a mother. How I wish I could have both. If only I could have my present job at home, taking care of my baby would not be a great concern anymore.
Our last two nannies, Rose and Julita, were a nightmare. My baby got sick two weeks after Rose started to (mis)handle him. Whenever we come home from work, there were plenty of mosquito bites on my baby's skin. Luckily, he did not get the most dreaded Dengue Fever. A month later, when she collected her first salary, she did not come back after she asked to go out with her mother. She sent her boyfriend to get her clothes and personal belongings. What a face! Far worse is Julita. In just as short as five days, my baby had a fever. A neighbor told us, Julita leaves the house an hour or so, after we leave for work, comes back at noon to get her lunch and the baby's food and leaves again. She would always stay at a neighbor's house. My older children told us one day that the nanny lets the baby stay under the sun with only an umbrella for protection. They even went to a far apartment outside the subdivision!
Now, I have decided not to let others do my job as a mother. I could not allow anyone to harm my baby anymore! If I were to weigh the consequences, I would better leave work and stay home (and work online) with my baby. However, my husband tells me to think a million times about it. If I leave work, a bigger part of our financial stream will be lost. He told me to ask some advice from our boss. The problem is I do not know how to do it, or how to start! I do not want to make a wrong decision and let my family suffer the consequences but I could not also leave the care of my baby to a person I cannot trust.